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It's been almost one month since I updated my blog. As I should have known myself better, I am just too lazy to bother jotting down what has happened or what has gone through my mind in a day of my life. Sometimes too many things happen at the same time, to the extent that it is too much for my thoughts to place them orderly and make sense out of it. Call me lazy, I just do not have the time and energy to do that. I would rather free my mind from all these stuffs. It is just too complicated and overwhelming for me to handle. I always tell myself that I should lead a simple life - not just in terms of lifestyle, but also includes mind and soul. Isn't it very exhausting when things get complicated, especially when you make them so?
I've been really busy recently, working on my design assignment. Not that I am complaining, but it is actually the pressure and stress that drive me nuts. The design process was totally depressing especially when I spent the whole day squeezing my brain juice but still couldn't come out with anything! The thing that I realized about myself is that I am very very easily distracted when I am supposed to focus my thoughts, especially emotionally. Not that I didn't know it before that, but I never thought that it is this bad. In the end, I got so stressed out as time was runnin out that my friend thought that I was going to cry! Well, almost the same thing happened today, I was so stucked with my design that I had decided to come back early and get myself preoccupied by listening to music, watching tv and surning net. That is what I always do, to so-called free my mind. Sometimes I wonder, is that a healthy way to get away with my problems? Eventually I still have to face them, no matter what. Is that an act of running away from problems? Does that mean I am not brave enough to face? I think I know the answer, just that I didn't want to admit.