Dear bloggie,
I did something crazy last nite. Not really crazy but something worth writing. It was after maths thinking paper. Though I still have one more paper, but it's in a week's time so I've decided to have early celebration by watching a movie with JH, ZY, WL, JJ and Paul. It was the last paper for some of them so they joined. We watched "The Intepreter" starred by Nicole Kidman and Sean Penn at Lido. I really enjoyed it a lot.
But the crazy thing was after the show when it was too late for me, JH, and ZY to take the last train. We decided to share a cab back, but I've suggested to hang out for a while in Orchard. So we did. Then I saw the chance coming to drink, haha! I've always wanted to test my threshold before I get drunk, so this is the chance! (well it's just an excuse to drink i guess hehe). Therefore we went to this 7-11 and bought drinks. Thanks to ZY's recommendation, I got myself a sucky vodka green apple while he got himself this cough syrup-like vodka raspberry. Eeeww! Then we went to this 24-hour food court besides cuppage and began our talking-cock session. I've kinda enjoyed it since I hardly do that with archi people. Suddenly they decided to stay out until 6 am and take the first bus/train home. The rationale behind - to save money without cabbing home!! It's crazy but I didn't mind because to me spending time with friends is always not enough, so i agreed. We ended up chatting at the table while watching this tennis match on tv. Then we went to another 7-11 to get more beer and stopped at kopitiam in Bras Basah to share a plate of char kuey tiao. Then we continued walking until we reached Fullerton. We stayed in the basement level of fullerton until we got chased out by security. Then we headed to "the pigeon" in front of UOB Plaza and sat on a bench there until it was time for us to take the morning train back. I wanted to have breakfast first before going back but the two just couldnt take it anymore so we skipped breakfast and took the train back . The above series of events took place between 12 am to 6 am. It was crazy but I really didnt mind because it enriches the memory of my new circle of friends besides doing archi stuff and being in studio together. I think I would really treasure this.
Ya, maybe I shouid write something like this more often to help me remember the interesting events that had happened in my life. Blame me for my poor memory and forgetfulness, sigh!
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
dear bloggie,
Sorry that I forgot about you for almost 3 months!!! Can't believe myself!!! Actually I made a promise that I would speak up my mind but I didnt keep that. It's just too dreadful for me to recall all the events that happened coz I'm a great escapist, avoiding problems and conveniently forget (unhappy) things. Quite a lot had happened for the past three months, but the most dramatic one was my little unannounced "getaway" to Johor which caused an unexpected two-day search party in school earlier this month. Now I'm notorious in archi....nevermind, I know I should have talked more about this but that is not this entry is about.
The thing that prompted me to write an entry is this big suprise sms that I got from my sis. SHE IS GETTING MARRIED NEXT YEAR!!. Never such big event has happened in my family. Actually I had already sensed the changes in my family earlier on - my sis's relocation plan to KL with her boyfriend, my parents' plan to retire in USA with my big sis and bro, etc. As the family had been lacking in communication since forever, I would never see those coming. So I see all these as changes in the family rather than just normal events that are forthcoming. I felt really wierd about all this, but I dunno why. Maybe it's because we don't usually speak up among ourselves so sometimes the things that we say would be sort of final and least expected as we couldnt see them coming. (dunno what i'm talking but yeah).
So I was really excited when I received that message. Then I called her straight away. We had this long talk over the phone. It's really rare for us, ya know. To my surprise, her boyfriend had already proposed to her in Feb and my parents had known about it long ago. She messaged me only after they had confirmed the date and the place for wedding dinner. Why am I the LAST one to know about this??? Why didn't they tell me earlier???? That's the prob I have in my family, COMMUNICATION! What makes things worse is that, I feel that we can communicate even better when it's through the phone than I was back in Ipoh face-to-face with them. Isn't that VERY SAD?! But nobody has taken any proactive measures to correct this and this has happening since the family started I think!
All in all, I know that my sis's marriage will mark some changes in my family. I really hope that these changes are for the better. Back to the marriage, though I'm not that close with my future sis-in-law, but I know he is quite a good guy so I'm truly happy for her. Never felt that way for anyone in my family before. Really looking forward to this!
Guess it's enough for this entry. I really hope I would write here more often, but I guess it's really an ordeal or fear for me to recall every bit of my feelings and struggle that went in my head, and ask myself why. Or maybe I'm really fearful of knowing my true feelings deep down. Hmmm, I guess one way to improve this would be leaving my bloggie homepage on all the time so that I'm constantly reminded of its existence whenever I'm using my comp. Hope it works haha!
Sorry that I forgot about you for almost 3 months!!! Can't believe myself!!! Actually I made a promise that I would speak up my mind but I didnt keep that. It's just too dreadful for me to recall all the events that happened coz I'm a great escapist, avoiding problems and conveniently forget (unhappy) things. Quite a lot had happened for the past three months, but the most dramatic one was my little unannounced "getaway" to Johor which caused an unexpected two-day search party in school earlier this month. Now I'm notorious in archi....nevermind, I know I should have talked more about this but that is not this entry is about.
The thing that prompted me to write an entry is this big suprise sms that I got from my sis. SHE IS GETTING MARRIED NEXT YEAR!!. Never such big event has happened in my family. Actually I had already sensed the changes in my family earlier on - my sis's relocation plan to KL with her boyfriend, my parents' plan to retire in USA with my big sis and bro, etc. As the family had been lacking in communication since forever, I would never see those coming. So I see all these as changes in the family rather than just normal events that are forthcoming. I felt really wierd about all this, but I dunno why. Maybe it's because we don't usually speak up among ourselves so sometimes the things that we say would be sort of final and least expected as we couldnt see them coming. (dunno what i'm talking but yeah).
So I was really excited when I received that message. Then I called her straight away. We had this long talk over the phone. It's really rare for us, ya know. To my surprise, her boyfriend had already proposed to her in Feb and my parents had known about it long ago. She messaged me only after they had confirmed the date and the place for wedding dinner. Why am I the LAST one to know about this??? Why didn't they tell me earlier???? That's the prob I have in my family, COMMUNICATION! What makes things worse is that, I feel that we can communicate even better when it's through the phone than I was back in Ipoh face-to-face with them. Isn't that VERY SAD?! But nobody has taken any proactive measures to correct this and this has happening since the family started I think!
All in all, I know that my sis's marriage will mark some changes in my family. I really hope that these changes are for the better. Back to the marriage, though I'm not that close with my future sis-in-law, but I know he is quite a good guy so I'm truly happy for her. Never felt that way for anyone in my family before. Really looking forward to this!
Guess it's enough for this entry. I really hope I would write here more often, but I guess it's really an ordeal or fear for me to recall every bit of my feelings and struggle that went in my head, and ask myself why. Or maybe I'm really fearful of knowing my true feelings deep down. Hmmm, I guess one way to improve this would be leaving my bloggie homepage on all the time so that I'm constantly reminded of its existence whenever I'm using my comp. Hope it works haha!
Sunday, February 06, 2005
untitled
It's been almost one month since I updated my blog. As I should have known myself better, I am just too lazy to bother jotting down what has happened or what has gone through my mind in a day of my life. Sometimes too many things happen at the same time, to the extent that it is too much for my thoughts to place them orderly and make sense out of it. Call me lazy, I just do not have the time and energy to do that. I would rather free my mind from all these stuffs. It is just too complicated and overwhelming for me to handle. I always tell myself that I should lead a simple life - not just in terms of lifestyle, but also includes mind and soul. Isn't it very exhausting when things get complicated, especially when you make them so?
I've been really busy recently, working on my design assignment. Not that I am complaining, but it is actually the pressure and stress that drive me nuts. The design process was totally depressing especially when I spent the whole day squeezing my brain juice but still couldn't come out with anything! The thing that I realized about myself is that I am very very easily distracted when I am supposed to focus my thoughts, especially emotionally. Not that I didn't know it before that, but I never thought that it is this bad. In the end, I got so stressed out as time was runnin out that my friend thought that I was going to cry! Well, almost the same thing happened today, I was so stucked with my design that I had decided to come back early and get myself preoccupied by listening to music, watching tv and surning net. That is what I always do, to so-called free my mind. Sometimes I wonder, is that a healthy way to get away with my problems? Eventually I still have to face them, no matter what. Is that an act of running away from problems? Does that mean I am not brave enough to face? I think I know the answer, just that I didn't want to admit.
I've been really busy recently, working on my design assignment. Not that I am complaining, but it is actually the pressure and stress that drive me nuts. The design process was totally depressing especially when I spent the whole day squeezing my brain juice but still couldn't come out with anything! The thing that I realized about myself is that I am very very easily distracted when I am supposed to focus my thoughts, especially emotionally. Not that I didn't know it before that, but I never thought that it is this bad. In the end, I got so stressed out as time was runnin out that my friend thought that I was going to cry! Well, almost the same thing happened today, I was so stucked with my design that I had decided to come back early and get myself preoccupied by listening to music, watching tv and surning net. That is what I always do, to so-called free my mind. Sometimes I wonder, is that a healthy way to get away with my problems? Eventually I still have to face them, no matter what. Is that an act of running away from problems? Does that mean I am not brave enough to face? I think I know the answer, just that I didn't want to admit.
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
"Speak" Ur Mind!
What a "great" way to start a new semester and to fill in my first posting of my very first blog -- I LOST MY PHONE!!! Well what can I say, you and your back luck, KC! Oh well maybe it's just my carelessness again. Time and again, this stupid weakness of mine had cause me much trouble and lost. When will I get to learn from all these awful mistakes and be more careful? I still remember the terrible experience of me losing my wallet last semester, "luckily" someone picked it up at the bus stop and handed it to my faculty. And the worst part was I didn't even thank that "someone"! Slap yourself, KC!
OK so why start a blog? Well, this stupid incident of losing my phone had prompted me to start blogging, haha! Guess this would be a very good way to record the stuffs that I am going to lose in the future, haha! Slap yourself again, KC! That goes to show how easily I am affected by my temperaments. Come to think of it, this would also be a good way to jot down the thoughts running in my head as I am so not good at expressing them verbally. Not that I am good at writing stuffs (you know, my poor English!), but i thought this would be a good start to improve it and maybe would bring out the journalist in me, haha!! I guess it would also help in developing my character as archi requires lots of reflection on how you feel and what you think. So "Speak" Ur Mind, KC!
OK so why start a blog? Well, this stupid incident of losing my phone had prompted me to start blogging, haha! Guess this would be a very good way to record the stuffs that I am going to lose in the future, haha! Slap yourself again, KC! That goes to show how easily I am affected by my temperaments. Come to think of it, this would also be a good way to jot down the thoughts running in my head as I am so not good at expressing them verbally. Not that I am good at writing stuffs (you know, my poor English!), but i thought this would be a good start to improve it and maybe would bring out the journalist in me, haha!! I guess it would also help in developing my character as archi requires lots of reflection on how you feel and what you think. So "Speak" Ur Mind, KC!
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