Just felt like I had to write something here, as it was 5 days ago since I posted something new.
I was not at work today. Went for 2 interviews in a row instead. 2 different companies with entirely different portfolio and job scopes. People kept telling me, in the end, it all boils down to what I really want. So what I actually really want? Then I kept telling them, all I want, is to explore.
Exploration. To explore what is out there, only then I will truly know what I want. Is this true? Or am I being indecisive? When is the right time to stop exploring and start deciding? Will I ever be contented? Or will I not stop searching? Am I one of the lucky ones to have the luxury to explore?
It suddenly hit me that I never had anything that really interests me enough to have the urge of possessing them. There wasn't any must-have item for me. I would always settle for things that I think I would like, but not sure whether I would love. It is as though my heart has turned cold sinces ages ago. I do not have a favourite colour or perfect shirt. Nor do I have a pop star that I craze for or a dessert to die for. I wonder, am I too hard to please, or am I just blatantly cold inside?
Dear, you're the only reason that makes me still human.
Friday, September 05, 2008
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2 comments:
Actually i also not sure wat i really want in my life. I juz let the life pass on like that. Sometimes feel miss out a lot of oppurtunities. :(
Chris: Hehe, a quite saddening posting ya? It was unintended. Yeah sometimes I feel the same too, but the true fact is that there are too many things out there impossible for us not to miss. So we should appreciate what we already have. Hehe.
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